Respect is Key; Love is Powerful: but Peace is Unimaginable
by Michael Starr-Desnomie
Going to Moose Jaw was amazing
getting the
feeling
that I never
felt before
in my life
it was a big
change for me
starting off
fresh.
Going down that good road
I will
always continue to walk
There might
be some ups and downs
and
challenges to face.
Talking to strangers who mostly
turn into
family
and fans
was great
getting a
lot of positive feedback
getting told
by people
how they see
you
what they
think of you.
But mostly what they love about
you.
I told my story
what I went
through as a child
and growing
up as a teenager
experiencing
things that no kid
should go
through at a young age.
What I saw in my life
it will mark me for life.
I fought my demons
to get my
wings back and
flying high
and feeling freedom
is an
unexplainable feeling.
I was told by a lady that my kukum
has been
with me this whole time.
She told me
that she can see spirits.
I asked her what does she look
like and
she told me
that she has short, black, curly hair
but when she
told me that
she has
golden wings and a golden halo.
I was
speechless when she said that to me
I looked over my shoulder
I didn’t see her but
I knew that
I was safe and
protected
and getting looked after.
She told she might be a guarding
angel.
My heart warmed up like it was on
fire.
I found out when I was in Moose
Jaw
I was told by a lot of people
how gifted I
am
how I can
use those gifts
by helping
out the ten mothers
who came all
the way from Vancouver and Winnipeg.
I listen to
ever word they said
when they
invited us to a presentation of theirs.
I got this special feeling
when Idelette Mcvicker said
Listen with
your mind.
Listen with
your Heart.
Then you
will feel sunlight shinning
on your
wings as they spread out.
I listen to every word she said
she was telling people that
she belongs
to them in a special way
well, in her
own very special way.
She even
pointed at me as said
I belong to
you Michael.
It was a
very special moment for me
because what
she all said
is what I
happened to me
I got a sign
from that presentation.
I was sitting in a circle that
represents
us as a nation
the four
directions.
I always wanted to see that
all nations
sitting and talking with each other and
taking each
other as one big, happy family.
Melaney Gleeson-Lyall and
Idelette Mcvicker and
eight other
mothers that were a part of that presentation.
They all
came to our Blanket Exercise that we were hosting at Moose Jaw Library.
Told them
and other people that were a part of the Talking Circle.
Letting out
tears of the pain of what I went through as a child and as a teenager
pouring my
heart out to people.
Telling
people what I went through growing up and
saying even
what I been through.
Made me the man that I am today.
I’m not
going to fail my ancestors.
I rather
make them proud and
bring back
my people from the shadows.
What I went
through I always had a saying to it.
“I fought my
Demons to get my Wings back’’
now flying
high in the sky
flying so
high that I never did before
feeling what
I never did in years
Freedom.
Opening up to people and meeting
them
they mostly
turned into family.
I accepted
everybody that said things that
never were
said to me before in my life.
Having that
empty space filled up with
lots of love
was the best feeling ever.
I always held my heart because
what people
say to me
gives me the
strength
to love
myself
even more
than I did before.
Had so much Hope, Beliefs, Faith,
Love, and Respect in me
that I’m
going to continue what I do and
shine bright
for people and change their lives.
But there’s one moment that will
stay with me for a very long time.
When I was
attending the Blanket Exercise with the girls
Because,
well, we had two groups so
the boys
took half and the girls took the other half.
I told
people about my story and
when I was
shaking their hands
a lady told
me that I was very gifted and
that she can
see me glowing.
She told
that my kukum has been with me
this whole
time she saw her beside me
when I was
talking
putting her
hand on my shoulder.
I looked
over my shoulder but
I couldn’t
see her
I asked her
what she looks like
she told me
she has short, curly, black hair.
I tried thinking,
who is she.
When she
told me that she had
golden wings
and a gold halo
I was
speechless.
She said it
could be a guarding angel or my kukum.
I felt safe
because I knew I was getting looked after
that I was
getting taken care of, me.
That’s who
is guiding me down the good road.
At least I was told because I
didn’t know and
that means
so much to me
that some
lady who was gifted
told me what
I didn’t know.
I talked with a lot people who
mostly turn into family
feeling what
I never felt in years
it was a
heart touching moment and
it brought a
tear to my eye.
Being honored to walk in the
grand entry
was a
blessing to me
because I
never walked in one before.
When I was in the talking circle
I always said.
I was that
cub that was lost in the woods
trying to
look for his family.
My mom never
gave up on me
she found
me, picked me up and
brought me
back to my brothers and sisters.
I always give thanks to my
ancestors each day I wake up.
Love knowing
that they run through my veins.
Feeling
protected because
I know that
they are watching over me.
When I’m needing help
I know who
to turn to and
ask for the
strength
to help what
I’m facing.
It was the best week that I ever
had in my life
a lot of special
moments
I will not
forget.
Where I am
now is much greater
than where I
was before.
Doesn’t matter what color you
are.
What tradition you live by.
We are all made by the same God.
We all feel the same on the
inside.
We bleed the same color.
We should be respecting and
loving one another.
Because Respect is key.
Love is powerful.
But peace is unimaginable.
Let’s all move forward together.
Let’s all come together as one
nation.
As one big, happy family.